» Sunday, September 30, 2007
I'd like to think I've changed for the better. I'd like to think you've changed for the better. But I know otherwise. To me, you're someone totally different. You're not how you used to be, and I won't deny that I'm not the same either.
But to think of all the efforts you've made in maintaining this friendship, it's devastating. Sometimes I wish you still read this, because I know you don't. If you did, hopefully you realise I was referring to you in previous entries. Obviously you don't think so. And (maybe this will make you realise it's you now) bumping into me during my lunch hour is not an excuse to suddenly remember my existence. It really hurts to know that, this is what has become of us. You said you didn't want to be like
them but hey, this is reality. And we have become like them. We're probably strangers now, at least you are to me. I don't know who you are anymore and I don't think it's fair for me to be the one always making the first move and calling you out when in the end I know I'll get rejected. If you were more involved from the start, it would have been fine. After Ani's departure, I never heard from you. When I wanted to seek advise from you, you never called me back, you never bothered. Let me guess, 'Oh I didnt receive any missed call or msg!' I've had enough of that. I don't think Singtel and Starhub are that bad.
This entry was written based on my own thoughts. You may have your reasons. But please, if you had that initiative which I'm sure would be helping you a lot during your SIP, this would not be happening. And hopefully you read this and know that this is what I'm thinking.
You were once the friend I could always rely on, the one I could always turn to. You're not that friend anymore.
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
